Two Years Ago Today

I do not have time to write this, but I don't care.

I am a chicken and usually don't put details about my real "life" up for the world to see. I don't think thats changing today, but suffice it to say, music takes me right on back to two years ago today. I was mending an old friendship and starting a new one. I made brownies for both. I wrote in my journal: "I love it when he looks me straight in the eye."

One year later I bought a tie and candy and shipped it away in a square, flat, box.

Today I was busy busy busy. Last day of cohort. Homework. Just got home from a trip=craziness. But I listen to the music, and I'm right back to two years ago, even if I am a slacker.

I'm scared of posting this.

Listen to This Song!

Okay, so I just found this AMAZING song by Regina Spektor. Its on the Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian soundtrack.

You can listen to it through this video from youtube, though the video's not necessarily awesome, the song is amazing.

The best songs are the ones that we can relate to.

I'm a Teacher!

Today, for the first time, I was in charge of a whole class of Second Graders by myself. It was amazing. Going into it, I was REALLY nervous. I kept having thoughts like "what if they kill each other?", or "what if they won't listen?". I tried to keep my cool though, say a prayer, and just took a really big deep breath before I went in.

It wasn't perfect, you know, but it was good! The kids were really cute. They wanted to know all about me, almost to the extent they didn't want to get anything done! But they did, eventually. I helped them with their centers work, I sent them to recess, we watched a movie, we did the calendar, we read a book, and they went to lunch. That's really all that happened. There were plenty of questions and "thats not how we do that" kinds of things going on, but in general, they were good. I know I could've managed them better, but it was my first day so I can't beat myself up too much.

The whole experience was just another reinforcer that this is what I should be doing. I don't know that it will be perfect, or that I'll love every second of teaching, but I feel like its the right place for me to be right now. I just love seeing learning in students eyes. I know its silly and idealistic, but I really do believe that teaching can be my way to "save the world" (just like you, mom.) I'm so excited!