Today, for the first time, I was in charge of a whole class of Second Graders by myself. It was amazing. Going into it, I was REALLY nervous. I kept having thoughts like "what if they kill each other?", or "what if they won't listen?". I tried to keep my cool though, say a prayer, and just took a really big deep breath before I went in.
It wasn't perfect, you know, but it was good! The kids were really cute. They wanted to know all about me, almost to the extent they didn't want to get anything done! But they did, eventually. I helped them with their centers work, I sent them to recess, we watched a movie, we did the calendar, we read a book, and they went to lunch. That's really all that happened. There were plenty of questions and "thats not how we do that" kinds of things going on, but in general, they were good. I know I could've managed them better, but it was my first day so I can't beat myself up too much.
The whole experience was just another reinforcer that this is what I should be doing. I don't know that it will be perfect, or that I'll love every second of teaching, but I feel like its the right place for me to be right now. I just love seeing learning in students eyes. I know its silly and idealistic, but I really do believe that teaching can be my way to "save the world" (just like you, mom.) I'm so excited!
Go Mikell! Teachers rule, and you will just get better and better at it as time goes by. Anyway, what would the world be without some of us idealist types running around? Just keep throwing those starfish...... Love you.
ReplyDeleteMIKEL! That is so awesome. I was never nice to my subs in second grade. haha I'll admit it now. I actually cried once cuz i was having a sub the next day and my mum had to tell me the sub was just as afraid as i was. But now i see the insiders view of a sub. HAHA! :) Lub you!
ReplyDeleteMikell don't beat yourself up at all - it sounds like you were amazing! Even by my standards of success, which I'll admit are only based on how many tears there were and whether anyone had to go to the hospital, you sound like you did sooo well. You're awesome!
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